Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in ferniefern's LiveJournal:

Saturday, August 27th, 2005
6:52 pm	right im missing my bf so much it sucks ass! like rawr sucks! 8 more days now till he is home! and its really hard! yes ive cried a few times but thats cos im messed up and i just meh ya know i dnt know! neways i was just thinking of things i can do next week and all i can think im working so fuck all i can do! also i only got £10 to last me till next week! im gettin my hair cut thursday no idea wot like tho! neways my brother is tryin to read this ill update it later! Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: the cribs-hey scenesters (Comment on this)
6:50 pm	a few things a few things i need to say MATT DAWSON IS A FUCKING LIAR AND A FUCKING TWAT I HATE HIM FOR WHAT HE HAS DONE FOR ME! I HATE HIM FOR HURTING ME, FOR LYING TO ME,FOR BETRAYING ME! but he cant see the things that he has done is wrong! i hope you suffer slowly and that ur really hurt matt I HATE YOU WITH EVERYTHING INSIDE OF ME! Current Mood: angry (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005
11:02 pm	righty ho update me thinks! hmm wot has happened since i have last updated! well i had an amazin night out on the sat! was so funny! i got very drunk teehee! and i have ace pics! right my favourite cuzin ever is stayin with me for well i dont know a while and its ace she is like a sister to me! she is really funny and mega pretty teehe! neways she is the reason i have a lump on my head i mean chasing me and makin me bang my head in to a door frame booo lucinda booo!!! right well apart form lucinda makin me hyper me gettin drunk and having my bf stay over ive not been up to much!ive been working on tuesday and wednesday!yawn i might not be seein ali tommrow *cries* cos he is not feeling well! i just wanna be with him now ! ~*~Ali~*~ Here comes the rain again, falling from the stars Fern says: i love you so much too ~*~Ali~*~ Here comes the rain again, falling from the stars Fern says: your seriously the most amazng thing thats ever happened to me, i feel so lucky to be with you i love it wen he says this to me it just makes me so friggin happy! its a month on sunday! A BLOODY MONTH! HEHE! ive been fucking happy for the past month more then i have ever been in my life!its so amazing! i sud really write other things in here other then me and ali! neways im gna go to bed now! read a book perhaps and tickle lucinda and maybe poke her teehee! mwhahah night night peeps xxxxxxxxxxx Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: yellowcard~only one (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 26th, 2005
10:39 am	oh my wow i havent updated since weds and so much has gone on!well where to start!right i met ali on thursday and went to the cinema and saw madagaska omg this film is soooo funny! but me and ali were kissin thro most of it teehee!neways half way thro the film me and ali were kissing and he said "i love you" and i was like *in my mind* omg omg omg omg!!!!! but of course i said i love you to!!!!=D neways later on i was droppin him at the train station and i said did u mean wot u said in the cinema and he said yes i did and i said ive never felt this way bout ne1 before i love you and he said i love you to and omg ive never been so happy in my life! the past couple of days have been bliss! i can say to people im in love heheh yay! neways friday was boring was work from 830-530 as normal so nout interesting to say also didnt get to see ali ='( neways saturday met ali and his mates and went to the all dayer at the void which was abit boring at first but then it was ok at the end! well saying that i did have 7 strawberry vodka shots a bottle of red square(whihc i had to down cos we werent allowed bottles in) andsum of sharons vodka and vimto!neways that night was so funny me and ali went to get sum fresh air and we see dan thom and louis well actually thom and louis getting off cos this twat dan has been slaggin thom for kissin guys i mean come on mate he can do wot he likes!grr!neways i heard thom shout i love cock so i shouted towards dan thom i love your cock!lol!neways i saw dan!dan is off myspace and ive been chattin to him since like march and i was like OMFG dannnnnnnnnnnnnn! and i was huggin him so friggin much and i gave him a kiss on the head cos i missed his cheek bein drunken and all teehee! neways ali came back to mine and we were up to 3 am talkin on the net hehe!mum made him sleep on the sofa and i slept in my room i came and lay in bed with him wen i woke up at 9 tho teehee!neways we spent the day mostly on the net takin picsa and takin to peeps!then monday i met up with ali and his 2 mates tog and jess!ali had to leave early =( i didnt want him to go! =( but i spent the rest of the day with tog and jess and omg it was so funny! we stopped and talked to black bond! what a legend! haha! he was MCing to us and he signed a piece of paper for me! hehe! "cos when we drop" hahaha! then we went to the cinema to seee wedding crashers and omg tog is the worst person ever to go to the cinema with cos he was talkin loud and singing to the music! lol so embrassing! haha! neways tog gave me a lift home and we put sum good music on very loud and shouted u fuckin chav out of the window haha! we got back to mine and logged on to the msgner and went on cam to a few peeps! we also took sum pics on cam, i had jess and me a drink of vodka and orange and thanks to tog i spilt it!gah!i was like nooooo thats vodka!!!! then tog was so nice to tune my guitar for me yay i can finally learn to play it now!yay!neways tog and jess left and i went to bed woke up and im now updating this and thinkin bout ali ALOT!!rigfht gotta go mum needs the comp!till the next update!xxxxxxxx Current Mood: missin ali! =( Current Music: fall out boy - chicago is so two years ago (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 20th, 2005
9:23 am	right... i realised last night that i cudnt edit the other blog thingy grr! ne hoot! sat night was so ace! after gonzos had finished we went to shakeys which is the normal place to go wen ur pissed in worcester although they heat their burgers in the microwave! haha! neways we got some chips from there which i shared which mark and claire and brought mark a can of pepsi! neways we decided that we were hungry for pizza so off we go to a pizza place by gonzos!so we got there and i brought a 9" margeretti(i cant spell) pizza! and i shared it yet again with mark! and jamie had a bite of my pizza and burnt his mouth bless him!neways louis needed 60p so i lent it him and he WILL pay me back or ill kick his skinny ass!hehe! neways got a taxi back and the others didnt have enough money so i paid for abit =) mark owes me now!hehe! right nothing happened on sunday apart from me wakin up and feelin like shit on my shoe!lol!and claire made me listen to a cd of mark singing hehe!it was good and avril lavigne he was singing, i was singing along to it =P then on monday i met up with ali and we wne tot the park and coffee republic!i always love seeing him =) hehe cant wait till thursday!!! neways tuesday i woke up with a sharp pain in my back and i did my bck excercises and took pain killers but the pain didnt go!and i had to come home early from work cos of it =( neways it was a painful night of back ache also had a dream bout edd and steven =S not gwd! lol! but in stevens he showed me that he had drummed for the band phinx hahaha! neways ive woken up this morning and my bck was ok!ive doen my excericises again and now im not sure!im seein ali all day tommrow and i really wanna be better for that! cos nothing is gna stop me going! neways today im thinkin im gna go in to work and ask to be on shop floor cos my back is abit meh!neways t concluded my wknd it has been the best ever!so much fun!hehe!i love skankin hehe its great fun :P Current Mood: bored Current Music: killswitch engage~the element of one! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 19th, 2005
9:53 am	the past fews days... righty ho i havent wrote in this for a couple of days and omg so much ace stuff has happened! so right saturday day i go in to town to meet ali and his friends! and im shoppin bout, all of ali's mates seem so nice =) especially justine =D hehe well we went in to h&m and like 4/5 of us brought a batman wrist band!hehe!well after shoppin tryin on gals clothes and accesories with the guys we moved on!fran and ali were bein picked up so i went by the algar statue and i pointed out this guys hair that i said to ali ur hair wud look nice like that! then my mob started to ring and it was mark and i noticed that the guy i had pointed out was wlakin over to me! it was mark!!! haha! i hadnt reconised him!hehe so i left ali =( but went shoppin with mark and his friends! im bad at names but i met his mate claire and she is so ace!and we wondered and spent alot of money and then claire and mark were both like come to gonzos!so i was like ok yeh!hehe so off i went bck home to get ready and off to le gonzos!woop! well we went to the postal order and i saw vicki, amy, laura,polly,belle and rachel!neways we went off to gonzos and claire pulled the fit american dude hehe!and i was skanking and dancing with 6 foot tall guys it was ace! especially for a 5'4 gal hehe!neways i meet dan he is off myspace and he is bery tall 6'3 to be precise and he is such a nice guy =) poo i gotta go ill update this later if i can do that teehee Current Mood: content Current Music: helena-mcr (Comment on this)
Friday, July 15th, 2005
10:33 pm	malvern right today i had a hangover from a fucking ace night out! saw fran cosgrave at tramps teehee! aceness got drunk *thumbs up* did some gorg cherry shots and walked home bare footed! hehe well today i walked from charlys to scummers to get a top up and cash back then to the train station took 20 mins and all and i walk past pershore high skool and laughed at it lol! neways i got on the train and phoned ali to say i was on my way but answerin machin i was gna kill him if he didnt turn up! but he did then we got a train to malvern and went to the winter gardens where we sat and kissed for like ages!!!it was so nice just being there with ali!ive missed him so much and although i saw him sunday not seein him until was so hard cos i like him so much! hehe then i met ali's best mate jack he is so funny and i really liked talkin to him hopefully ill get to know more of ali's friends! then we went for a wander and we saw my best mate from uni carl!he is such a dude i love him he is ace! and we were like talkin to him for ages! skipped short i caught a bus bck to worcester then caught a bus to perhsore and got picked up by mum! so to concluded today... i got a train from pershore to worcester, another train from worcester to malvern, then a bus bck from malvern to worcester then a bus from worcester to pershore and got a lift back to bish!im so friggin tired!i cant wait for ali to come online for me to speak to! how soppy do i sound hehe! ive never felt this way before bout a guy!i truly like him so much i cant stop smiling when im with him!he is so good for me! and i saw loads of guys ive known since middle skool last night and i saw my first ever bf jammy and i said do u like my bf and i showed him a pic =D it feels so great to be able to tell people i have a bf it makes me so happy cos ali makes me happy!neways im chattin to sophie bout hair styles atm and talkin to rory bout smokin and bein tutted lol!but im gna stop babling cos i dnt know wot else to write love fern xxxxx Current Mood: calm Current Music: james blunt- wise men (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 14th, 2005
4:25 pm	OMFG look at what i adopted today i have called her selina and she is pink oh go on play with her teehee Current Mood: excited Current Music: my chemical romance (Comment on this)
10:14 am	today righty ho today is gonna suck during the day cos i was meant to be with ali cos its been a week since he asked me out but i dnt have enough money to get in to town *cries* neways im wearing a skirt woo! i think i might be wearing a dress tonight hehe! goin to charlys at 6 with my ghds hehe =P i cant wait for tonight tho! but i cant stop thinkin bout ali! gah! neways iam goin to go and sunbath in abit cos im as pale as they come lol!i need a tan! i dont have work till tuesday now woooo! =D hehe! i sud really be doin lots of overtime but i need more money!lol wooo i get paid tommrow woop! ok time to mention charlotte! charlotte is a gal at work who was in the yr above me at skool she is so cool and she has a myspace now woopa cos i told her she sud =p teehee well me and her had fun at working rumbling cos we rock at it! hehe! it was great we were catching up on the gossip of skool hehe! neways i seriously need to think about morew things to write bout in here but for now! this will do!woo! Current Mood: energetic Current Music: blink182-take off ur jacket and pants live album! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 13th, 2005
10:27 pm	today has been fun today has actually been a cool day lol! i started work at 1230 and i got put on a till for like 30 mins the rest of the 6 hours were spent on the shop floor messing bout with shell kate and charlotte it was so funny espeically mine and shelles singing! oh yeh u know its all in tune ennit! hehe!neways ive just realised i wont have enough money to see my boyfriend tommrow ='( cos im going out with my oldest and best mate charly and i only have £20 to go out with her and i wont have enough to go in to town *cries* we will be gone out a week by tommrow! he makes me so happy and i dont think ive ever felt this way about someone before he even said this to me ~*~I'd rather die then spend this night here without you...~*~ says: i've never been this happy in a relationship ever that makes me so flippin happy! neways i dont really think i have much to say apart from going to tramps tommrow its beach night *rolls eyes* yeah right like im gna wear a bikini look at my body gah! neways! ive gotta look for an outfit then goin to charlys at 6 not goin out till 8 or 9 but as normal me and charly need time to get ready hehe i cant wait tho! its been so long since me and charly have gone out together its gonna be like the old times =D woop! babble over! Current Mood: chipper Current Music: mad world by gary jules (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 12th, 2005
10:56 pm	wooo second post eh eh eh! right, now i know i like to talk alot of shit to lets try and get alot of it out on to here eh! well where to start today i made myself have a lye in! which is like 9am to me i woke up at 940 and it was bloody boilin!the covers were off and i was sprawled across my bed! gah! weather eh! i have my windows wiide open but stil its bloody warm! lol! neways i got up got washed and dressed and felt really tired probs cos i was up till 1230am talkin to ali! oh well he is worth it i guess =D then i had work at 1230 and i swear it was such a lazy day today i turned up 15mins late and they didnt even say anything lol i didnt go on to a till, until bout 130 haha! so i was lazing bout at work today wasnt too busy probs cos it was a gorg day outside and no1 wanted to come do their shoppin fair play to you!lol! i must say that ive got nothing really that interesting to write today!its my best mates bday on friday and i have the day off work and she decides to tell me on sat that she is gna be with her family friday so meh im gonna spend the day with ali! dont know what she is gonna do for her bday!it annoys me alot!neways im gna get an early night well so i hoope i bet i dnt! ill stay up all night talkin to ali! damn his charm and well being my gorg bf teehee! i saw an old skool teacher today aswel =D and i said yeh i have a bf! its such a gwd feeling to be able to say that i hhave a bf! i have sum1 that makes me so happy! neways toodles till the next rant xxxxxxxxxx Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Monday, July 11th, 2005
2:45 pm	righty ho well i saw that sian had done one of these and i thought to myself oooo i should do one cos i bable enough dont i lol great anyways only a short one and ill post more later cos im bein kicked off the comp *rolls eyes* need to clean the dinning room mums gah! neways lovely weather today i might go sunbathe! missin ali though wont see him till at least thursday now =( sigh! Current Mood: bored Current Music: foo fighters (Comment on this)